A lot of people say, "four kids, wow... are you done?"
And we say, "we'll see what God has in store for us."
Due to a family history of early menopause we don't know if I am able to have any more children. On the other hand, we know many people that have conceived while on birth control or even after having a vasectomy or tubal ligation. So to say that we have decided we will or will not have more children, well, that would be ridiculous.
I suppose a better question would be, "do you want more children?" Ahhh, that depends on the day you ask the question. (Ha-ha.) But really, I can say, I think we do.
Now ask me if I want to be pregnant again.
If I weren't overweight: yes.
If I could skip the first three months, the last month and transition during birth: yes.
But I know there is a way to get around that, through adoption.
I used to think adoption is a wonderful and noble thing; I just wasn't sure it's for me.
I thought you should really want it. Well, last week as I nursed my 6 week old I felt like I
really, really wanted it. I know it was the oxytocin. I know I have my hands full now. But I found myself talking myself into it, as in "everyone says adoption takes so long. If we start
And we say, "we'll see what God has in store for us."
Due to a family history of early menopause we don't know if I am able to have any more children. On the other hand, we know many people that have conceived while on birth control or even after having a vasectomy or tubal ligation. So to say that we have decided we will or will not have more children, well, that would be ridiculous.
I suppose a better question would be, "do you want more children?" Ahhh, that depends on the day you ask the question. (Ha-ha.) But really, I can say, I think we do.
Now ask me if I want to be pregnant again.
If I weren't overweight: yes.
If I could skip the first three months, the last month and transition during birth: yes.
But I know there is a way to get around that, through adoption.
I used to think adoption is a wonderful and noble thing; I just wasn't sure it's for me.
I thought you should really want it. Well, last week as I nursed my 6 week old I felt like I
really, really wanted it. I know it was the oxytocin. I know I have my hands full now. But I found myself talking myself into it, as in "everyone says adoption takes so long. If we start
the process now we could have a baby in 2 years. I'll still be lactating. It will be perfect."
I nonchalantly asked my husband, "would you ever adopt?" He responded, "maybe." Now that's the most positive response I've ever received from him on this subject. I prayed that if it's God's will my husband would have the same desire.
I have heard the emotional turmoil associated with adoption is much worse than the physical challenges connected with a physical pregnancy. But I am convinced that if I keep a "God is in control attitude" then all will be well.
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